Underneath the non-mistletoe

My ex ltr stopped by my home on Christmas morning to say the Merry thing.  My mom who always loved the dude (because he shamelessly flirted with her) was thrilled to see him.  I was uncomfortable. A) His girlfriend already has a problem with me.  B) He had professed his love for me the night before on the telephone after having a few too many nogs.  

I find it strange to see myself next to a man in a picture, it's been a long time.  Frenchi and I were never around other people and it made no sense to take pictures of us together.  I can say that I don't even own a shot of the the two of us and we dated for over a year.

My mom invited him to stay for breakfast (sigh) and he accepted.  He did every single dish which was awesome and it felt nice to have a man in the house I have to admit.  He is not for me and I don't say that lightly.  I loved him and I loved him deeply.  He loved other things more and I don't mean women, although he cheated once, but I forgave him, it was an emotional thing and I knew he was having a difficult time.  Long story which I won't go into.  We were only 20 when we met.  We made love 7 times on his 21st birthday, a number we tried to match in the years that followed but never did.  He was my first love and my first heartbreak.

When he called me to tell me he loved me he said it wasn't just because he wants to "fuck", but that because I've suddenly become very interesting to him and he wants to know all about me.  I think it's because I'm not interested in him and he wants what he can't have.  He asked me if I was seeing anyone and I said no.  I think he sees a possibility and there is none.  He would dump his gf of 2 years if I gave him an opening, which is sad.  There's a reason she has a big problem with me, and its not because of me, we've spoken maybe three times, I think she senses her bf's attraction remains with me.

I feel kind of weird writing about him, it's been a very long time since I've had him in my home, it seemed weird and yet normal, as strange as that sounds.